A simple verb, but a seemingly impossible task for me — to just “be.” But I’ve realized that’s what I am now trying to do, and it’s what I’ve struggled with most of my life. To let go of the need to fight, to struggle — and just be.
I have a tattoo on my wrist that says “peace, the final force.” I’m trying to find that in myself so I can let it run my life from now on. Instead of fear, anxiety, stress. Instead of living up to others’ expectations or wishes. Instead of being anything other than 150% of what I am. I will choose peace in myself every day, even if it’s a struggle the whole time. I will be a better mother, wife, woman, and self for it.